Its not all bad - I can see the light

I was looking through my recent posts and got the impression that my life is miserable. This is far from the truth, day to day I am a happy go lucky dude. This blog is a series of snapshots into my life, and I usually take a picture when I am down - so that's only what you see.  I guess writing about the down makes me feel better. That said, its been a rough week.

Last week I found out that my pen pail friend from AZ that was diagnosed with the same tumor as me when I was in treatment has passed. 18 months from diagnosis to passing. This alone is depressing, but loosing my only confidant and friend in Brain Tumor related maters has left a void in my life. Understand that I do not bring up or talk about my condition and symptoms to many people.  People that don't have brain tumors usually do not understand what I am talking about and either say 'wow', and look at me like I am a psycho or laugh it off, often adding that that happens to them too.  RIP KA, I will miss you.

I have been ramping up my extracurricular activities. After my camping/hiking trip, me and the family took a trip to see my sisters in Michigan. Last week a couple friends took me to see a NFL football game. These excursions are preceded with a lot of anxiety. Just working too hard during the week seems to cause me to suffer with headaches and exhaustion for days. I worry about ruining the trip for everyone if I crash and need to go home. Good news, like the camping trip, I was able to make it through MI and WI trips having a great time and suffering little health consequence. It brings me great joy knowing that I can live alive with my tumor.